Life Right Now

My friend Annie said that blogging is addictive and yet, I do not find myself having much to say. That is obvious since I haven't blogged since September. But there has been a lot going on recently. Our small group is getting closer than ever. Our leaders' oldest child was baptized on Sunday and seeing them moved, moved me. I always get excited when I see more people coming to Christ, but with this little girl, I was moved to tears. Seeing her parents and realizing what it must mean to see your child become a new creation in Jesus - that was priceless.

Then I read Annie's blog, and I am inspired to write. She is an incredible person and I love reading what she has to say. I am inspired by her marriage and how she and her husband are best friends and they make each other laugh. My husband has been dealing with migraines the past 3 years and it has made marriage tough. When we can't even talk when he gets home because he needs to go lie down, it hurts. I know he hates that he can't be the husband he wants to be. I don't know why these started or what has triggered them, but they really suck. And I hate seeing him in pain - I hate knowing he is in pain. God has blessed us in so many ways, and our marriage has needed a shove in the blessing department for a long while. I am grateful for everything the Lord has done for us - but the one thing my heart desires is still in progress. Dustin separated from the Air Force the end of September and God supplied a job. It will be over in March and he will need to find something else. I am also currently looking for a job. I didn't realize how hard it was to find a job. I have submitted at least 50 resumes and have only had 2 interviews so far - all in the last 2 months. There are definitely many stressors in life, and I really try not to focus on the negative. But sometimes, it wiggles its way inside you and manifests into illness, bitterness, resentment - all that nasty stuff God never wanted us to handle.

Other than that, life is good. God has blessed us with incredible family and friends.

I never really know what to say on here. I just start typing and the words just flow...

Until next time...whenever that is....